Circles

I took my time

as I evaluated this thing called life

waking up in the morning

regretting the loss of sleep and still yawning

and constantly wishing it was a Saturday

at least then I’ll have a rest

but this is the job that I went to school for

this is the life that the wise told me I should strive for

this is the job my boss tells me I should be grateful for

fulfillment

constantly asking my God “why am I really here?”

the calling is deep inside me

creating beauty

leading change

touching another’s life with grace

all the things that I feel are mine

are so far away beyond my reach

the world is telling me to settle

and the God in me is pushing me to act in faith

who should I listen to?

the loud voice of the world shouting at me?

or the still voice of my God persuading me?

the correct answer is choosing God

but that in itself is like choosing to walk on water hoping that you’re going to Jesus and not a ghost

ask Peter, a slight fall in faith and you’re drowning

choosing God is never easy

it requires forsaking personal ambition for His plan for your life

it requires trusting the unseen God to provide for your daily needs

and it also requires patience, a virtue that I don’t possess

choosing God also means looking at Him while others are looking within themselves

it means loving God and loving others who usually piss you off

choosing God is a sacrifice

you sacrifice yourself and everything you have along with it

but it’s only in choosing God you find fulfillment

only God creates lasting happiness

only in God you won’t be disappointed

only in God you can die proclaiming “I made a difference in this world”

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